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So … instead of writing something like “paint me like one of your French girls” I’m gonna write something real (and much too long.) I never ever thought I’d let this photo see the light of day. I don’t even know if I can allow it to sit in my feed to be honest – my heart is pounding just considering clicking “post.” Here it is though – This is me: Naked and makeup less. The photo is modest in reality and yet to me it’s showing EVERYTHING and some days it makes me cringe so hard I wanna remove it from my phone and other days I accept it. I posed naked once for a friend – this is that moment. It was the ultimate “putting myself out of my comfort zone” thing I’ve done. Seeing as tomorrow begins another journey outside my comfort zone – today seemed the perfect day to release this into the wild. Tomorrow and on I will be at a Vipassana 10 day silent meditation retreat. That may sound like something fun or holiday like – but it’s not … especially for someone like me. I am a very social person. I love making connections and I love exploring all things that take me outside of sitting with my own thoughts, anxieties and insecurities. I obsess on the past, I obsess over things I could’ve done and I stress over the future. None of this is healthy. All I want is to be present. There will be no distractions (not even a pen and paper/book permitted.) No eye contact. No speaking. 4am-9pm sitting with myself every day. 😳😳😳 All of me 😳😳😳 and dealing with whatever comes up on my own. I can only avoid myself for so long, so I decided to just fuckin go for it – no matter how scary it is. It’s been a long difficult road of figuring out who I am outside of my band and what things mean the most to me – hoping to gain further clarity on all aspects of me and my life. There’s so much more I could talk about – but I’ve already made this too long … so … well … I’ll catch all of you on the flip side. 💋 #naked #af #meditation #vipassana #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness – thank you to @rob_bryn @whaitecanvas and @icfnyc who planted this seed in my head.
I love Vicky for her big heart for animals! She just adopted another cute little dog named “Billie” and I bet that Billie is going to have heaven on earth with Vicky by her side.
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Meet Billie. My new pup. After the heartache of losing my dear @gizmoasher I wasn’t sure I was ready for another dog. My second dog Louie was so heartbroken and mopey that I caved and went into the amazing rescue foundation @vanderpumpdogs where Louie and I instantly fell for her! Thanks to everyone there for helping bring such a beautiful weird little girl to my home! Please #adoptdontshop – so many wonderful animals in need of a good home. If you can’t own one – find it in your hearts to donate or volunteer at your local animal rescue – they’re making beautiful possibilities for homeless animals in need. 💕 #animals #dogsofinstagram (special thanks to @hannahbortz @nolasinger )
Vicky added a third tattoo to her collection! It’s a tiny comic of her dog Louie and was done by Graham Chaffee Tattoo in Los Angeles.
Oh my godness! This song sounds so good, I hope we get the full version soon!
🎶”I know how to fall cuz it’s all I got, not trying to be something that I’m not.” 🎶 – – I’m in a mood. Yea that’s right; F*ck it! Trying to release your own music all by yourself can be incredibly frustrating. I’ve been wanting to put out music all year. More music than I have been. I’m being pulled this way and that constantly. Told when and how and where to release. What strategy works and doesn’t and blah blah fucking blah! IT’S SO EXHAUSTING! I’ve been sitting on this damn song “hollow” for years now … and f*ck it – this is me releasing a clip bc …. I’M IN A MOOD today. All of us can get fed up – and today I’m having that moment. Releasing new music next week for anyone that cares. 😂😂🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️🙄🙄😩😩🤘🏻🤘🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻 – is this me losing my sh*t? Maybe and I’m totally ok with that. DAMN THE MAN! #music #damntheman #newmusic #tbt